Chasing Mondays!

Currently I am listening to "Stop Sabotaging Your Weight Loss" by Jennifer Powter. I have to stop and think how many books have I already read, listened to, bought, and are lining my shelves that relate to weight loss? Too many to count. How many healthy eating influencers do I follow? Again, too many. And yet here I am still in the same shape I have been for the last umpteen years. Well, plus about 50lbs, it's been a rough couple years. Which is an excuse I tell myself, but really it should not be. People deal with what life throws at them ALL THE TIME without gaining a single pound! So why is it that I cannot get it right? 

I don't have answers for that, but I do know that sabotaging has a lot to do with it. Some of that sabotaging I don't even know I am doing. So, here I am, AGAIN, in the same boat of starting over. But starting over today, not Monday, not tomorrow, but today Friday, August 22nd 2025. My inner fat b*tch, we will call her Bertha, is yelling at me to get through the weekend and start Monday because we have plans on Saturday. But we have to stop chasing Mondays. 

Bertha is so strong that I completely forgot I was rebooting and had a not so healthy lunch...half a grilled cheese (which wasn't even that great), Birria which was fine, and french fries which were curly and I am not even a fan of those. Sigh. STFU Bertha. You are doing me no favors. (Reboot 849 starts now.) I am planning to blog my way through this mess of rebooting my body and mind as often as I can. Bertha is strong, and she controls a lot. So, I have to figure out how to change her mindset along with mine because quite frankly I need to get Bertha on my side. 

I also need to journal food. Which I have always hated doing, it feels overly time consuming. But I feel like I need to commit to that as it seems all the people who are successful do this, especially at the beginning. So, I will give it my all. And may or may not post that here. 

Here we go again!

How funny that I find myself once again thinking about blogging. Wondering should I start fresh with a different platform? So I pulled up my original blog and read the last post I made. The post was from August 1st, 2023 and it basically said I was thinking the same exact thing but realized my previous posts were all part of my journey and that I should definitely continue with the same blog. This still holds true! Therefore, I will keep on keeping on. 

Little did I know that a meer 4 months after my August 2023 post of starting fresh I would lose my mom. And 8 months after that I would have my 2nd knee surgery. To say that I have been on yet another emotional roller coaster would be putting it mildly. Life without my mom is hard. I miss her everyday and there are so many things I want to talk to her about and so many times I just go to pick up the phone to call her. But I can no longer do those things. It is yet another new chapter in my life. But I don't want to focus on loss and sadness. I want to focus on moving forward and choosing happiness, because my mom would want nothing less. Here is to breathing new life into this blog and finding my footing again.